A Letter to My Daughter on Her 5th Birthday

“The average distance between a dream and its manifestation is the number of times your knees have bled while clinging to the ground in prayer.” - Nancy Ruffin

Today is your birthday. I have been writing to you since the day I learned of your conception. It has been five glorious years that I was blessed with the gift of being your mother. For 1,825 days you have shown me joy like I have never known and the incredible capacity the human heart can love. The manifestation of your life was not a mistake. It was intentional. It was purposeful. It was every single prayer, answered. It was a baptism of dreams formed from the thousands of tears I shed those months I painfully sank into the bathroom floor clinging to negative pregnancy tests. These past five years have made the pain and heartbreak leading up to your birth worth it.

Every new day brings with it a new opportunity to celebrate:

Your existence

Your greatness.

Your brilliance.

Your magic.

You represent all that is perfect in this world. Your innocence, your kindness, and your amazing way to brighten up my day by simply walking into the room reminds me of God’s grace. I prayed for you so much. I prayed and cried myself to sleep some nights